AIZEN: Line of Hope

Aug 24, 2019

THE DAY OF TRUTH

Several days ago, I’ve started feeling PMS-like symptoms such as breast tenderness, feeling of fullness, firm and sensitive; mild lower abdominal cramps, lower back pain, sleepiness, tiredness, mood swings and easily gets irritated and being so emotional towards awkward things.

That prompted me to check it for myself and find out something early this morning, a home PT kit . I went to the washroom, and from my first pee in the morning, I catched from its stream using a dropper and dropped twice on the kit and waited for 3 minutes for the result.

As the drip approaches to the strip paper, the control line starts to turn into a distinct red line, then about 2 to 3 minutes when I started to see a thinner distinct yet fainted red line on the Test line.

What did it mean? When I checked on my google, it says like, it is a “Faint Positive Result”, meaning to say that, possibly, you are really pregnant or may indicate a pregnancy loss, or could also mean that there is just a blood mixed in the urine.

I took a photo then send it to my sister who just had a baby last year and she reacted saying Congratulations!, the same as mine when they checked it in the hospital (showing her 2 PT kit results from her confinement).

The moment I saw these lines are the same as my sister’s. Things started to change my perception in mind. Everything’s just new. I have mixed emotions, I couldn’t explain that feeling inside of me, whether it’s anxiety, excitement, overwhelming happiness, fear at times or maybe a little guilt towards my company where I worked with.

Everything’s new. Things I haven’t experienced yet before – motherhood. Yeah, I’m on my way towards maternity.

The more I look at these double lines, the more hope I foresee, the more that I realize that it’s not anymore my story alone but ours, me and my baby Aizen is comin’ on his/her way towards developing into becoming a zygote and embryo then become a fetus in my womb and an infant as early as I’ll gave birth to him/her, in God’s perfect will.

Happiness is best defined when a mother undergoes the process of pregnancy until that day of bringing out that little angel inside her womb into this world.